Case of the Mondays..

Today is not a good day.. apparently for many people. If you're one of those folks who's already having their own bad day, feel free to skip this post, 'cos it won't make you feel any better.

The title of this post, besides being the obvious "Office Space" reference, is because, I swear to god, on my grave, that I actually -HEARD- my boss say "must be a case of the Mondays.." today. In actual usage, to a teammate. I kid you not.

Saturday I spent 45 minutes on the phone with a very pissed of NYC Fireman. After work there was a very brief respite of bad movies and MST3k and socializing with folks. Sunday was spent mostly at my parent's house for Mother's Day, which is -NOT- restful.

Then, today, I went back to work, and my by the 4th call of the day I had some insane lady screaming at me literally at the top of her lungs. I thought my phone speaker was going to blow out from her screaming so loud.

I nearly broke down at my desk. I managed to get off the call and go to the bathroom.

Today was the final straw. I don't get paid enough to be screamed at. I don't want to work there anymore. I transferred to my department to get away from screaming people, and it hasn't obviously worked. I'm tired of driving 2 hours every day on top of the 8.5 hours I spend actually -at- my job. Especially driving 400 miles every week just for work, with the price of gas what it is.

I didn't quit, or walk out, but I've decided that once the house is sold, and I'm looking for a new place to live, I want a new job. Working in my specific field is too stressful and crazy dealing with customers. I did, however, take a half-day flex that I'm gonna have to make up the rest of the week. I've been flexing/calling sick/taking vacation time like crazy lately. But I couldn't take it today.

I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I feel like I'm barely hanging on by a thread. Due to the fact that my friends have realized just how stressed I am and decided to kidnap me for RCFM anyways, I have to manage to make it through this week, and then 3 days next week and then I get a 5 day break, which I desperately need.

I don't know how I can keep doing this. My head feels like it's gonna explode.

Right now I feel really alone. All I want to do is have someone hold me for a while and fall asleep in someone's arms. Someone to hold me for a while and tell me it's gonna be ok.

All I've got right now is me.

Steampunk Outfit

Okay, so it doesn't fix everything.. but the timing helps -- A package came today of stuff I'd bought from another fatshionista member. Somehow, I was able to see two items they had for sale and mentally put them together and realize "Wow, that'd be great as a steampunk outfit for RCFM with my brown suede skirt!" Seeing as I've been having difficulty trying to figure out steamy outfits that aren't of the tomboyish-mechanic variety. ;)

So.. a preview.. Sabrina's RCFM Steampunk Outfit! (First draft, sans all adornments)